Saturday, January 10, 2026

### Fae Lore of The Ambercourt Glade

Name: * The Ambercourt Glade *

Also Called: * Melithra's Hollow *


__The Place__


Deep within an elder forest where moonlight drips like silver nectar lies The Ambercourt Glade—a fae dominion hidden behind curtains of flowering thorns. The air hums constantly, not with sound alone, but with memory. Flowers bloom black, gold, and violet, heavy with honey that never spoils. Bees—large, luminous, and intelligent—drift like living lanterns between petals and carved wax shrines.

No mortal path leads here twice.


__The Fae of the Hive__


The fae of Ambercourt are known as Mellifae—beings bound to pollen, wax, and promise. Their wings shimmer like stained glass dipped in honey. They speak softly, but every word is a contract.


They believe:

  - Honey is memory

  - Wax is law

  - Stings are mercy


To taste the honey is to remember things you never lived. To bleed within the grove is to be known forever.


__The Queen__


Queen Exya, the Thorn-Crowned, rules the court.


She wears a diadem of living briars dripping gold. Her throne is grown, not built—woven of petrified flowers and sacred comb. Her eyes glow amber, and her voice causes blossoms to open and close.


She was once a Seelie fae, but when mortals burned her grove, she fed them honey mixed with grief and turned her court Unseelie by vow.


She does not forgive.

She does not forget.

She waits.


__Sacred Laws of Ambercourt__


  - Never take honey without leaving blood.

  - Never crush a bee. (The forest will remember.)

  - Never speak your true name aloud.

  - Never follow a song unless you are willing to stay.


Breaking a law does not mean death—it means belonging.


__Offerings the Court Accepts__


  - Wildflowers picked under moonlight

  - Gold thread or rings

  - A secret you’ve never told

  - A promise you intend to break


The bees judge the offering. If they hum low, you may pass. If they go silent—run.


__The Curse of Sweet Return__


Any mortal who leaves the Ambercourt will crave honey for the rest of their life. With every taste, they dream of the grove—and with each dream, a little more of them returns.


Eventually, they stop waking up.


Their bodies are found deep in the forest, wrapped in flowers, lips gold-stained, smiling.


__Whispered Warning__


“Follow not the golden bloom,

Nor drink the hive’s embrace.

For honey binds the heart too tight,

And time forgets your face.”

Sunday, August 17, 2025

It's you Friday night in a delicious fur coat.

 Friday 15, August, 2025 15:00-16:00ish The Door - Teddy Swims

[Verse 1]

I took a page out of your favorite book

You sold me lies just by the way you look

Taught me a language that I'd never speak

Baby, that ain't for me, that, that ain't for me

I dug my grave watchin’ the way you move

You took me higher than I ever flew

Too many times, gave you a second chance

Baby, I'm just a man, I'm, I'm just a man

[Pre-Chorus]

No more thinkin' about you late night

No more runnin' around with your friends now

Done pickin' the pieces of my

Soul up off the floor

[Chorus]

I said I would die for you, baby

But I can't take this pain no more

I thought I was willin'

But tonight, I saved my life when I showed you the door

I don't wanna lose you, baby

But I can't play this gamΠ΅ no more

I thought it would kill me

But tonight, I saved my lifΠ΅ when I showed you the door

[Verse 2]

You never thought this day would ever come

But I looked you in the eyes and pulled the rug

You tried to take away my sanity

Baby, that ain't for me, that, that ain't for me

[Pre-Chorus]

Oh, no more thinkin' about you late night

No more runnin' around with your friends now

Done pickin' the pieces of my

Soul from out the floor

[Chorus]

I said I would die for you, baby

But I can't take this pain no more

I thought I was willin'

But tonight, I saved my life when I showed you the door

I don't wanna lose you, baby

But I can't play this game no more

I thought it would kill me

But tonight, I saved my life when I showed you the door

[Post-Chorus]

When I showed you the door

When I showed you the door

But tonight, I saved my life

[Chorus]

I said I would die for you, baby

But I can't take this pain no more

I thought I was willin'

But tonight, I saved my life when I showed you the door

I don't wanna lose you, baby (I don't wanna lose you, baby)

But I can't take this game no more (No more)

I thought it would kill me (I thought it would kill me)

But tonight, I saved my life when I showed you the door

[Outro]

Mm-mm-mm

Woah


Friday, August 15, 2025

Single

 Catching Bodies - Sekou


[Verse 1]

I ain’t fallin’ for no pick up lines

I don’t care about no dollar signs

I need someone that can treat me right

Even tho you’re lookin’ good tonight

[Pre-Chorus]

Cuz, I been tempted, I been drinkin’

But this ain’t real so we ain’t linkin’ up

Might be fun but that just ain’t enough, alright

Hit me up when you get serious

I want love just not a pick me up

All these games just cuz you’re curious, alright

[Chorus]

If you don’t want love, I just rather not waste my time cuz baby I do!

Can’t be out here just catchin’ bodies

If you don’t want us, and you looking for one and done, I’m not for you!

Cuz I won’t be catchin’ bodies cuz of you!

[Verse 2]

I ain’t trynna get my roster right

Even tho you’re lookin’ good tonight

I ain’t gon’ lie, yes, I’m the freaky type

But that’s only for my ride or die

Even tho, baby

[Pre-Chorus]

I been tempted, I been drinkin

But this ain’t real so we ain’t linking up

Might be fun but that just ain’t enough, alright

Hit me up when you get serious

I want love just not a pick me up

All these games just cuz you’re curious, alright

[Chorus]

If you don’t want love, I just rather not waste my time cuz baby I do!

Can’t be out here just catchin’ bodies

If you don’t want us, and you looking for one and done, I’m not for you!

Cuz I won’t be catchin’ bodies cuz of you!

[Outro]

Yeah

No-no, no-no, no

Won't be catchin' bodies cuz of you

No-no, no-no, no

Won't won't be catchin' bodies cuz of you

Oh, no

Can't be out here just catchin' bodies


Friday 15, August, 2025 13:40-50ish


Thursday, January 23, 2025

2025/01/23 - It’s Thursday, past midnight.

I can’t sleep. My insecurities won’t shut up. 

This feeling of ugliness has overcome me. 

It’s so overwhelming. I can’t see anything. 

I’m longing for a love that feels like my body is engulfed in flames. 

Winter is kissing my skin. 

The bedroom window at 5 in the morning. 

I’m sorry. 

       I’m sorry. 

              I’m sorry. 

I don’t love myself. 

I simply cannot satisfy your hunger. 

The bane of my existence is feeding on my every thought.

What am I to do? Where am I to go? 

There’s a fog straight ahead. 

I can’t breathe. I can’t see. I can’t hear. 

I’m nothing, everything, anything. 

I can be undone. 

Empty. 

Alone. 

Friday, November 22, 2024

Dude grow up. September 09, 2024 at 03:44

 Be sweet to him, stupid. 


It’s not that deep, be sweet to him. 

Be soft. Be slow. 

Tuesday, June 28, 2022

Rocket Pop & Black Cherry

2022JUNE28TUESDAY 00:34

she finds my heart sinking towards the bottom of the ocean.

suffocating, the cool water around me embraces my body.

i'm sorry...

/

love has really been my best friend and worst enemy. 

why must i let myself be consumed by these thoughts and feelings. 

lexy, baby, i'm so sorry.

i feel like i'm trying my best but my best doesn't feel good enough.

i feel like i can't find my voice or my words. i hesitate even now to spill my heart out on the pages.

what am i so afraid of? what's stopping me? why do i find myself here once again?

it's that word that makes me cringe, again again again again again again again again ag-

i'm sorry, i'm not myself, i haven't been feeling like myself these days.

i have absolutely no regards for anyone or anything around me.

i feel myself closing off and and shutting down.

we write when we're depressed.

i want to find my voice, i want to find my words, i want to be here

here. here is beautiful, here is peace, here is home. 

i just want to go home.

lexy, i'm so tired. i just want to cry.

but when will the tears end?


Monday, November 16, 2020

20180902 - child, why are you so sad?

sometimes I catch myself slowly dipping into the darkness and my thoughts start to plant seeds into my head but I try to remind myself that your loyalty lies with me. I trust you and you have never given me a reason not to. 

(akito-san) xoxo


• 20181005 •

I don't feel real. you don't feel real. all of this sounds crazy and I can't help but fall in love with you, this universe, my brain, my body, and all the in betweens.

Monday, September 14, 2020

20180830 - I cried myself to sleep on the floor

 my head gets fuzzy sometimes

rocks have formed in the back of my head

dust, they slowly fade away


Mr. Darkness has always had an interest

his grip, its been calm; soft.

Mr. Darkness, where are you now?

his eyes have met mine on multiple occasions,

it's gentle and electrifying.


i let go and you reach for my hand ...

what am i to make of this terrible mess ?

this mess i have made, thousands of times

mistakes i have made, it's here. i'm here.


i'm  coming back home. 

home, so close to touch.

to touch would be surreal.

surreal, is this my imagination?


love is powerful in all forms

so why is it i hear no when your heart syncs with mine ...

No, why do i hear it ? 


i'm becoming undone.

unmasking, unraveling, i'm right here.


here, in this moment. 

darling, it's time to sleep.

i have to go

              going

                     gone



Monday, August 17, 2020

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I don't feel like a being. I feel like my soul is just using this vessel in this lifetime and I'm trying to be it but I can't so I'd rather just let her take control and see where she takes us. I'm tired of putting so much pressure on myself. you know, I believe in reincarnation and multi dimensions and universes and realities and everything. this body will die. my soul will live on forever. I just think it's easier to think outside the box. literally outside of it. I'm a real life sim lol I had been thinking about it for a while and I'm happy with my decision. 

xoxo, lex #She/Her #They/Them

Tuesday, June 18, 2019

20190527

i can’t   S  T  R E  T  C  H   my feelings and thoughts out to you

i feel you’re too     

                   F                A               R

i’m just trying to 
                                          H
                                     C
                                A
                           E
                      R        enlightenment

this vessel is CoNfUsEd and it’s hard to coooooo-operate.  

i just wish you’d πŸ˜˜my forehead  

Sunday, June 16, 2019

half of you 2018MAY08TUESDAY 00:27A

Hey. Hi. Hello.

You met me at such strange time in my life. At first, I was afraid I'd push you away because I was nowhere near good in my life. I was so depressed. Feeling the lowest of the lows & I was letting myself drown because I was so used to grasping for air while being weighed down by everything I couldn't control in my life. I was dancing with the Devil & felt cuffed to him at times. I felt like I had danced with him for too long that it was just a daily routine for me. I had challenged death a few times by intoxicating myself with drugs. I was literally throwing my heart on the floor, constantly, & stepping on it being hung on my ex & still talking with him at the time, being selfish around my house with my family, having no feeling about any of them.

I was depressed.
I wasn't eating & I was getting irregular sleep.
I'd look dead at times because of the drugs & no food.
I put myself through hell just to shut up my demons.

I hated myself.
I wanted someone to fix me.
I wanted someone to do it for me.
I was alone, everyone I thought was my friend turned out to be the complete opposite.
I felt lonely, and I wanted someone to comfort me. I couldn't bare to face myself & the world alone.
I didn't trust myself. I didn't love myself enough.

I used to think that I would never to get to experience an actual peace of mind. I used to think that there wasn't anyone out there for to spend my time with, that true love & true happiness was all BOGUS, that I would go through life without at least one true friend to understand

{ Sir Ecstasy }

201712/30 SATURDAY 11:41pm πŸ˜–

I can’t feel what’s in front of 😢 me

    Pleasure has stripped me of 😀 my breath
        Daddy let me sleep with Satan - πŸ’•my poison

My legs won’t sit still, they quaver for him πŸ˜”
I feel humanity in my heart 🌿
It suffocates me πŸ™Š

She wants it all ✨

My momma! 🧜🏼‍♀️ She craves his soul
This frosted feeling πŸŒͺ passing through me

    Passion is streaming with energy πŸ™πŸΌ inside my well-being
Do you have the will to tickle this soul burning inside me? πŸ”₯
        Inhale and exhale, your precious darling is echoing πŸƒ

Lover πŸ’”, you have shunned my desire to embrace you
You have forsaken my urge to leave an impression on your lips πŸ’‹

This cursed angel πŸ‘ΈπŸ» demands you to sway toward the light of day

        SUNRISE TO SUNSET ⛅️

Blessed

I honestly am speechless when it comes to explaining my feelings and intentions being with you.
You're everything I have been waiting for and more.
The way my heart melts the moment I look at your face. 
Every part of me that you have touched is yours. 
Everything I have, my heart & soul, is yours.


My Aunt Rose came to visit.

I, the Devil herself, am feeling really low.
Everything hurts and I feel like I'm dying. 
I have nothing to fear but fear itself.

Sunday, October 8, 2017

PEACOCKING!

I wanna vibe with you through a conversation. Talk with me like you've known me forever. Trust that I won't judge you. I'm here for you. To take 3 shots of Fireball and down it with a Red Bull. I'll light this bowl for you and watch as you inhale reality and exhale a weight off your shoulders. Netflix & chill? I've got you trapped in an illusion with the tips of my fingers. feed me and stuff your life down my throat. the vibrations between us fill my soul with unbelievable energy. can we start over, my name is Alexys De La Cruz. and i wanna get you faded. I want your palms sweaty and head shaking. that smile on your pretty face gets bigger and bigger. pearly whites and ghosts dripping down. are you thirsty? would you like some water? please, by all means, make yourself at home. I'm your queen and I'll provide for you and support you. I'm the mother of all mothers here to nurture you. hold my hand dear, the streets are not safe. I love you. and I'm in love with you. and your heart is mine.





PS - old to me new to you. 

xoxo LEXY ^3^